I exist in the depths of my solitude pondering my true goal......
trying 2 find peace of mind and yet still preserve my soul....
constantly yearning 2 be accepted and from all receive respect....
never compromising, but sometimes risky, and thats my only regret......
A young heart...
with an old soul....
how can there be peace?
How can I live...
in the depths of solitude when there r 2 inside of me?
This Duo....
this battle..
within me gives the perfect opportunity 2 learn....
and to live twice as fast as those who accept simplicity.....

I Cry .....Tupac Shakur

Sometimes when I'm alone I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.

The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form I Cry because my heart is torn.

I find it difficult to carry on. If I had an ear to confide in I would cry among my treasured friend

but who do you know that stops that long, to help another carry on.

The world moves fast and it would rather pass you by, then to stop and see what makes one cry, so painful and sad.
And sometimes... I Cry and no one cares about why.

I love this poem and can relate

Psalm 86
A prayer of David.
1 Hear, O LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.

2 Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.

3 Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.

4 Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.

5 You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.

6 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.

7 In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.

8 Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.

9 All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.

10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.

12 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.

13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. [a]

14 The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.

15 But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

16 Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant. [b]

17 Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Who am I?
that I cannot be who I am?

Am I to be hidden....
pushed aside....
pulled out....
when it suits you....

I know the world is what it is...
but its also what we make it....

A double edge sword...
I mean I knew what it was when we started...
but its not any easier...
in fact,
its deeper...
or maybe thats what ive fallen...

in love...
with you for sure....
but is it the idea to you?

or what it could be?
or how you want it to be....
or what you've been told....

what is the reality?
its....
a choice...
a banishment...
a punishment....
a love gained?
a soulmate found?
a love lost?

or a dream.......

the dark is everywhere...
their eyes feast on your soul...
waiting wanting you to scream.....
to feel you go cold.....

a scar so deep.....
its who you are now.....
but you can change.......
do you choose to.....
or do you give in...
give up...
just quit....

on those who were there....
or could be....
want to be....
or are.....

you just dont let them in.....
to touch....
to reach...
to preach...
to heal.....

funny how a pain so hot....
can turn you so cold.....
how the eyes...
can burn so deep...

you wonder...
are they really there....
or are you not.....